10/19/2021
October 19 is a special day in my heart and the day that I choose to celebrate and love in any area that brings JOY! There was a period of time I dreaded October 19 and a period of time I LIVED for October 19.
Some years it is sweetest day, somedays it was just another day of the week but in fall of 2013, it became my wedding day to my late Husband Ryan.
I'm here to tell you that it is your choice in how you want to celebrate days that are meaningful to you. Love is not linear. It is ever so expanding in ways you never knew were possible.
Its possible to find love for new life experiences, for things we have access to daily - for people we never knew were just around the corner
It can also feel threatening. Being loved arouses anxiety because it threatens long-standing psychological defenses formed early in life in relation to emotional pain and rejection of our past. It can arouses sad and painful feelings from the past AND EVEN throw us into an identity crisis.
whatever your story, it's ok. Now is the time to heal yourself ā¤
Last year on October 19th, we had a Ribbon Cutting celebration at Genoa Nutrition and it was such an incredible day to celebrate with my kids & my main squeeze BSharp.
This year, I acknowledge Brandon for bravely walking next to me in my journey. He challenges me and encourages me, listens to my vents and together weāve put back pieces of our once broken lives and continue to work on it every day. His genuine calmness has allowed me to trust and to find love again. He encourages me to lesson the judgements I feel on the regular and continue to build my life navigating the ups and downs on my terms.
We are here to have families, and even though theyāre not all put together in the same way, thereās beauty in everything god has a hand in even if we canāt always see it, especially when we are in the thick of it. I honor my life with Ryan, & will continue to do the best I can and always keep an open perspective.