18/09/2026
PART 2 - BEYOND THE ILLUSION
My awakening initiation began when the life I had built could no longer contain who I was becoming.
I had to quit drinking alcohol, drugs, toxic food/relationships/job…
and instead—
I began studying the body I was desperately trying to avoid connecting with,
so that I would not feel the pain that was buried deep inside me.
Movement. Breath. Yoga. Buddhism. Ritual. Mysticism. Kabbalah. Shamanic traditions. Sexual Healing. Somatic. IFS.
The intelligence of nature. Plant medicine…
Different lineages and languages.
But underneath them—I kept finding the same invitation:
WAKE UP. 🙌
Step outside the story you inherited.
Outside the identity you built to survive.
And as initiations often ask us to leave the familiar world and enter the unknown,
so I did again, 4.5 years ago even more profoundly when I decided to leave everything I’ve built:
The home I built alone, my business, my community, family, another 4 years of former relationship, a baby miscarriage, and one big illusion of mine—the of not staying alone ever again.
In the Jewish tradition I was born into, there is another language for this movement:
the journey from Mitzrayim — the narrow place —
toward freedom.
And not by coincidence, a nomad like me was born at the time of the year we celebrate it.
All wisdoms are different doors into the same mystery:
Because the real prison is not outside of us.🕊️
Sometimes it is the world we keep recreating inside the body.
The beliefs.
The fear.
The shame.
The identities.
The places where we forgot that we were free!
And every time I met one of these places inside myself, I had a choice:
Stay loyal to the old story, or enter the unknown.
This became my practice.
Not escaping the human experience, but learning how to move through it.
To let go of the need to fulfill what society was expecting from me to be or accomplish so far, and fully offer my life to the mystic underworld & the mysterious divine plan.
LAST PART IS COMING 🌹
Tatiana Nesello us baby, mama nature in her glory and raw experiences of pure joy. LOVE U♥️