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2nd New Low In A Row, Weird Meals

Not a lot to say right now, just still dealing with this injury and doing everything I can to not make it worse while working towards my goal. I can feel the momentum building, I'm finally starting to like what I see when I look in a mirror. I randomly flex when I see a reflection. I can't imagine what I'm going to look like by the end of this but I will continue this journey to the end.

New Low, Discovering Arm Veins!

Just yesterday I was talking about eventually seeing veins in my arms, just for me to random notice the first signs of them post-workout the same day! As a dark skin brother seeing blue through my skin freaked me out at first, and it took me a moment to realize what I was looking at.

Despite all my progress, I get discouraged and start thinking that I haven't really made enough progress. Seeing THIS was a bit of a shock for me, and I don't really have anyone in my life I can talk about this stuff with so I'm glad I'm documenting this stuff online.

I did some research online and saw that I won't have real bicep veins until I'm around 16% body fat, so I'm VERY far away from seeing it lol. Chances of seeing it before 2027 is virtually none, but I'd love to prove myself wrong.

Seeing veins in my hands, ditching dumbbell presses

The hand veins is cool, I notice they start popping if I'm walking for 4 minutes or more. It will be a crazy milestone when I start seeing clear veins in my arms. I do sometimes see raised vein areas while working out in my arms but it's not clear.

The dumbbell presses have been a pain. I ditched bench presses for a similar reason and now I've reached a point where these weights are just too heavy. Next push day you'll see me using a press machine. I guess the day of free weights is moving away from me.

Missed Today's Weigh-In

To be clear, I eventually DID weigh in but that was after I already stuffed myself silly on those tuna sandwiches, supplement drinks and protein chips; it came in at 248 lbs, which is lowkey a win because it didn't spike to the 250's lol. End of the day I ONLY count the weight if I did it off of waking up, using the washroom and having an empty stomach.

Today my hamstring was in pain the entire day. There was no way I could workout. I'm shocked I managed to get to 15,000 steps without breaking down. And now, as I'm writing this I'm starting to feel some issues in my right hamstring too. I just can't catch a break, I want to be normal again so bad. Either way, not letting the injuries get in the way of keeping a calorie deficit.

Discovered a new protein chip brand at Loblaws

I promise this NOT a bad advert. Genuinely I've been searching for a protein chip that isn't grainy or chalky. Finally i have one, however expensive they may be. Either way, better than eating Quest chips lol. Downside is they're kinda ugly, but I don't eat food because it's pretty lol.

Little silly of me to not expect side effects from putting my left hamstring through the ringer yesterday. I'm hoping that I'll feel better in a few days and I can go back to being slightly more reckless. I'm really starting to dislike rest days, even if they're necessary, since I love eating so much.

25,000 steps, trying Costco Pizza

For those curious about my calorie deficit for today, I burned about 5,000 calories. Could I have just kept a 2,500 deficit instead of eating so much? Sure, but I want to eat big to retain as much muscle as possible while losing weight. I also don't want to have huge drops in weight because I'm hoping to have aa little loose skin as possible. I know it's inevitable but I'm going to do what I can to be as comfortable as possible being shirtless one day.

Costco pizza has been on my "list" of foods I want to try. It helps that it's easily trackable, unlike the restaurants I want to visit. I didn't eat the non-cheesy parts so I consumed a little less calories than I calculated, but I always round up instead of down.

Finally hit a new low, neighbours ruining my sleep

So long story short, one of my upstairs neighbours started blasting music at an unholy hour. I confronted him about it, he didn't recall playing music but admits it had to have been him so he apologizes. MEANWHILE, the old lady right beside me did something I asked her not to do less than a week ago. I politely left a note under her door telling her that I often don't sleep until late, so if she could keep her call convos lower until about noon then that would be appreciated. She THREW THE NOTE BACK AT MY DOOR. Then yesterday she walks out of her unit with her phone on max speaker volume while talking loudly. While in bed I ended up screaming "I'M TRYING TO GO TO SLEEP" and she immediately S**U and went back into her unit. I would feel bad about screaming at an elderly person, but after the disrespect she showed me I lost all compassion. Anyway, due to yelling I couldn't go back to sleep until later and my entire day was ruined from being unproductive thanks to being in zombie-mode from no sleep. Good thing I hit a new low, or else I would have lost my mind.

Tying my all-time lowest weight, physique check

As I'm writing this my hamstring injury seems to be flaring up again. I have a phsyio appointment in 2 days to figure this out. I've admittedly been a bit impulsive with my movements the past week so this is my own fault.

Nice to see the scale trending down again. My mental has been getting tested every day. I've been so consistent and at times it feels like I'm not seeing the rewards. It's really tough at times. Seeing veins in my hands when I walk for 5 minutes does help my mood during the day, but the mornings can be REALLY rough. I just keep telling myself to trust the process.