07/10/2026
We want an answer that makes us feel better.
Cause -> Effect = Solution. But that is not always possible. This has become increasingly evident to me in relation to horses.
Because there is a hell of a lot that we don’t know. About the horse’s body. About how behavior indicates issues. About environmental influences. Sure, we’re much better informed now than we were even just a few years ago.
But there’s still a lot we don’t know. A huge lack of data. And yet decisions still have to be made. Decisions that alleviate suffering. Decisions that change the course of our personal goals and expectations. Decisions that end up having to be made without any clear diagnosis.
This is so difficult. We want to know that we are doing the right thing, the best we can do. We need proof. We want to look at a diagnostic, to have the vet say “this is it”. But so very often, this just isn’t possible. Even with all the money in the world, we can’t often figure it out. Not because anyone is negligent. Or because we are unfeeling. Or because we don’t have access to top tier care/diagnostics/treatments. Sometimes, often, we just don’t know, can’t ever really know.
So what do we do? This is where a form of true horsemanship surfaces. When owners are willing to make hard decisions in the face of a lack of hard evidence. To reroute goals and expectations. To pivot to a path that serves the horse first, even, especially in the face of our own discomfort.
To stop treating without longer term positive results.
To stop riding, or riding at a level that the horse simply can not tolerate.
To stop normalizing a level pain, behavior and disfunction.
To stop perpetuating hope in the face of suffering.
We want to run out every possibility. We want to believe that the horse is tolerating. We want to believe that the next specialist will have the answer, the next set of injections will do the trick. I get it, we just want to believe. We want relief via definitive answers. We chase them with all we’ve got.
But, we have to put the horse’s need for relief before ours. We have to be able to step back, to see what needs to be seen - because we know our horses better than anyone - and to make really hard decisions in the face of an unsolvable riddle, with nothing to tell us that we did the right thing, other than the alleviation of our horse’s pain.
It’s often the hardest - and the most important - thing we will ever do for our horses.
And we need to try to do this with some grace, some self-forgiveness. I do not know a single horse owner who does not regret having not done the right thing, whatever that might be, sooner at some point in their life with horses. It’s hard to feel good about giving up riding and retiring your horse, or moving a horse from a competitive to a noncompetitive path, or euthanizing a horse when you are doing any of these things without a clear diagnosis.
Some things simply can not be solved. And that's okay.
Doing what we know, in our heart of hearts, is the best thing for these beloved animals, the greatest form of compassion. It is not giving up. It is acknowledging that, despite our very best efforts, we will never find the answer that makes us feel better about doing the right thing.
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