07/10/2026
This might seem a bit self-indulgent, but after Wednesday night’s practice, I made it home and decided to look in the mirror. We had a big one at the club but I intentionally did not look in it as I was worried about what I’d see. But at home, I decided to look.
What I saw was pretty remarkable. The colour red and I seldom get along. It’s always amplified how big I was and I always felt like a blimp. It’s why I wear darker colours most of the time; it blends more and I’m able to sink into them. But not last night.
I gotta say, I’m pretty darned proud of my progress. It’s not done, not by a long shot, but it’s well on its way. I look like I belong and will only get better as time moves forward. The big goal is to “make the weight”, but to not just make it, but do it in a way where it’s sustained, where my health gets better, and that when the day comes where I no longer need or allowed to take the injections I do to help move the weight loss along, I don’t become a statistic and put it back on.
I refuse to regress again.
Some might say I’m out of my mind doing this. Some might say just participate in open weight events. And for some, I’d argue that’s the right call and I’ll continue to advocate for a return to open weights at the upper end for men & women. But for me, I gotta do this work. I know I can. And I will succeed.
A few years ago, a man I admire, 2000 Olympian Rulon Gardner, was unable to participate at the US Open because he couldn’t make the weight. I want to say I can do it, and I hope Rulon makes another attempt at it. I’d love very much an opportunity to roll with the best. And if not, then I’d still like a chance to roll with the best and meet him on the mat all the same. I’d do for him what my buddy Mike McCrary did for me in 2024. Gotta pay it forward.
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Finally to anybody seeing this who thinks they can’t achieve their own goals, I want to tell you that you can and you will. Believe in yourself. Put in a full effort and you got this. I believe in you.
Sleep well, you awesome humans.
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